ugh

Talking with an old friend from high school who I know use to/still does like me. We have a bit of small talk before he says "Can I ask some personal questions?" Of course I don't care because I know exactly what he's going to ask. He asked how my love life was and I said it was fine and I was currently in a relationship. He asked man or woman to which I responded woman. Then he asked was I bi or lesbian to which I said I was bi. Then he asked how long did I know I liked women and then when I started dating. I felt like I was talking to a doctor about how long I'd been sexually active or something. I feel like everytime a guy who liked me in school asks about my love life will leave me having to answer a thousand questions probably wondering why they didn't get a chance.

D'espas planning a US tour? FUCK YEAH

http://www.facebook.com/pages/DespairsRay/464859240264?ref=nf JOIN THEIR FACEBOOK YOU BASTARDS

I need D'espa icons..

Hello world!

This week has felt a little bit slow....but its almost done now! School is going okay and work is okay too I guess. Hours got cut so I'm not too happy about that :/ But I'm so thankful for working at Star Clipper cause its extra money I can put in the bank! It feels good knowing I have extra money ;-;

When I work at Star Clipper I've noticed a lot of American comics I want to read. I bought this popular one called Scott Pilgrim that looks good and a bunch of little comics by Jeffery Brown & Liz Prince. Their books are so cute ;-; Man I had so many opportunities to sell manga today but EVERY PERSON I SPOKE TO HAD NO MONEY! I was so in the zone and they were all "Aw man..I wish I had money" ..... ( -_-); get out and come back with cash.

Though while looking over comics it made me want to draw again. I really want to get better cause I do love to draw but my friends are much more talented than I am )8 h8 u guyz.

Next weekend I'm heading to Chicago again for the GPKISM/Selieen concert on that Sunday. I hope I can get the latest Cure's if we go to Mitsuwa. *fingers crossed* Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease be there ;_; I want the producer photoshoot...

I'm so ready for spring. We got hit with surprise snow and I was all "WTF! IT LOOKS LIKE THE CLOUDS ARE DROPPING DANDRUFF ON ME FFFFFFFFFFFFF" )8 I want warm weather.

also. I'm gonna try to start doing excersises to tone my legs up. Maybe..join a gym? Probably not LOL I want sexy Reno thighs. Then I can join ViViD! I'm also really addicted to Lastica by Karasu right now

AW SNAP RANDOM PIC SPAM

( this is why I'm hot )

I keep getting headaches and its pissin me off. I'm also still constantly going in and out of weird moods that aren't me. It's like the never ending pms.

School starts Tuesday. Mixed feelings about that. Seeing the girlfriend Monday during the day and having dinner with mom in the night. Excited for Monday.

I think I need/want something different to happen in my life right now. It's either the never ending pms or something thats got me restless and just irritated with everything.

I need to start working on costumes and things involving my costumes. I also need to prereg.

I really love Temari's voice. So glad he's back in a band. /random

I forgot where I was going with this...*posts*

Okay so remember our family friend who passed away? Mom called me this morning saying that some asshole broke in his house and stole a bunch of his stuff. He had laptops, cameras, nice tvs and stuff like that. WHY would you do such a thing?! Do you not have enough respect for the dead and their families to leave them the fuck alone. People disgust me sometimes. They really really do.


In other news I hung out with kneesocks yesterday and had grand fun times. We went to this Japanese resturant called Oishii Sushi and it was indeed oishii. I had Unaju(eel) & oshinko(pickled veggies). I didn't finish my oshinko at the place so I took them home and destroyed them while watching American Idol. I love oshiko. After lunch, I wanted to put that in Japanese...I'd be....Hiru gohan no mae? I think....anyway! After lunch we headed over to the Galleria cause their Waldenbooks is closing and I was curious about what manga they had left. I got Godchild vol 1, Vassalord vol 2, Vampire Knight 5 (I'm not even sure I have four =A=; plus I need to reread it), Tsubasa vol 1 (wanna start collecting it) & this little journal with a cute anime girl on it. It made me lol so I'll write in it and draw in it at work.

Then we wandered to Clairs where I got a belt and this adorable hat headband (pics will come soon). Followed by that was a trip to good ol' Hot Topic where I got this awesome hooded jacket. It's pink and black and came with cat gloves with little claws and on the hood it has cat ears and a lil nose. It has a hole for the eyes but putting on your face is kind of creepy so I don't. We wandered in Torrid for a little then shuffled to FYE where we talked about anime and hentai lmfao I never knew kneesocks watched more hentai than I had. Then again...I watch a lot of Coat West :X

After that we headed back to her place and talked about cons and cosplay, which resulted in us noticing we had met each other once before aaaaaaaaaages ago at Kunicon when it came to St. Louis. We were in this Kunikon Idol thing or something where we had to give commercial ideas for the cons next commercial and she went first. She was a little embarrassed so I gave her a hug XD We were the first two up and I complimented her costume cause a friend of mine loves Kiddy Grade so I could recognize it.

At home I watched Idol and yelled at the tv when the "OTAKU" was on. Looooooooooord. Um....after that I grew angry with the internets WHICH SHOULD HOPEFULLY BE FIXED THURSDAY and watched some Doremidan & Phantasmagoria before I fell asleep at midnight. Aw yeah 8D

huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuur nets bein retarded which in turn made my aim retarded so i went to bed 8|

MARYLAND HEIGHTS, MO (KTVI - FOX2now.com/AP) - St. Louis Police have released new information about the victims from Thursday's deadly workplace shoot in North St. Louis. A disgruntled worker is accused of shooting co-workers at the ABB industrial plant on Semple Avenue near Interstate 70. Police say Carlton Carter, 57 of St. Louis, Terry Mabry, 55 of Moscow Mills, and Cory Wilson, 27, of Collinsville, Ill were all killed Thursday morning.

ABB released the following statement Friday morning regarding the shooting: The tragic events that took place yesterday at ABBs St. Louis facility came as a shock to everyone in the ABB family. Today we mourn the loss of three of our colleagues. Our deepest sympathies go out to the families and friends of Terry Mabry, Cory Wilson and Carlton Carter. Our thoughts and prayers are also with the five other employees who were wounded in the attack. The St. Louis plant will remain closed for the time being while the police complete their investigation. ABBs main focus now is on the well being of our employees. Counseling is being provided today for all of our St. Louis employees and their families, and we have set up a hotline for employees to call for updates and information. We continue to support local authorities in the investigation and are monitoring the situation closely.

Authorities have also officially identified the shooter as Timothy Hendron, 51 of Webster Groves. Hendron was found inside the Group's plant from an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound.

The shooting began at 6:30 a.m. Thursday at the plant where the Swiss-owned company makes electrical transformers. Police spent hours inside the sprawling plant searching for the gunman and additional victims.

The motive for the shooting isn't clear, but Hendron was among employees of the plant who sued ABB over its retirement benefits. The trial began Tuesday in Kansas City, Mo.

http://www.fox2now.com/news/ktvi-abb-victims-identified-010810,0,2580116.story

Yesterday while I was driving to work I had heard about this story and thought "Oh wow this is so messed up...why would people just do this?" At the time they hadn't released any names or the motive of the shooter and I had no idea that the person who's name I bolded worked there. It wasn't till I came home when my mom called saying that she couldn't get in touch with Carlton all day and was very worried that he had been one of the people shot this morning. She knew he had work at 6:30 or was getting off work so right after she heard about what happened she began calling and texting to try to get ahold of him. Carlton was the type to return your phone calls right away so when that didn't happen mom was worried that he got shot. This morning my mom came downstairs and woke me up to tell me that the names were released and he was indeed one of the people shot.

You hear about these things and see them on tv but never expect someone you know to be involved. Carlton was a really nice guy who even after my mom and him broke up stayed friend with her for a long time. He was always ready to help out and was there for my mom when needed. Even when I was at work, if he saw me he'd stop by my lane to say hello and pass a greeting to my mom. I'm sad for my mom because that was a good friend of hers and I don't know if she'll end up getting sadder considering my grandmother passed in the winter as well. Things like these make you really really value every day you're able to get up and live your life. My heart goes out to his family and his daughters. I hope they'll be okay.

It seems....last night was a Doremidan centered night. I found a concert DVD to download AND IT WORKS *watching now*, a mood theme for my livejournal, really neat random pictures aaaaaaaand their Expect Rush that I couldn’t find on youtube (Thanks Daily Motion!) BUT to top it all off….my Rock & Read I had been waiting on arrived today. I was so excited I’d have the color spread for the article he did but……it was not the one I expected…..SO NOW I GOT NEW ADORABLE MAKOTO PICTURES *A* They’re all in black and white but thats okay I’m scannin em anyway!

Went to Chicago and now I'm back hoooooooome 83


Upon returning....

me: *wanders to hamsters cage* HEY JJ ARE YA DEAD YET?! *opens cage and pokes* Oh...you are. :X


WHOOPS Well now I'm down to Cassie again and now I have another shelf for my stuff! I'm gonna miss hearing him run in his wheel late at night. Maybe his recent crazy behavior was a sign....